Got my fitbit!

YEA!  I've had my fitbit since Friday, and I am loving it.  Of course, I almost broke the thing.  Yes, I am one of those people that dropped the fitbit in the toilet!  Ewwww!  I had it on the belt clip, and when I was going to go to the bathroom, the thing popped off my pants and right into the toilet.  Thank goodness it was clean water (though - still gross - toilet water).  I immediately dried it off and put it in a glass with some rice.  It still works, still syncs, so I guess I am ok, but in the back of my mind I still think it is covered in germs even though I did clean it off with a clorox wipe.  The thing is a good thing to have.  It has encouraged me to get moving more.  It will be interesting to see how active I am this week at work.

On an eating side, I again blew it over the weekend.  I totally went off my diet Friday night, Saturday, and part of Sunday.  I was just tired of not eating what I wanted and my parents were having the boys spend the night with them.  That left just my husband and I and we ate chinese, pizza, cheesecake, and all kinds of other stuff.  The good news is I have lost the 2 pounds I gained and will try not to do that again.  So, hopefully I can get back on the wagon and have a good week.

Sloooooooow

I had a pretty good week only to blow it over the weekend once again.  However, I did go down a bit from last week, so I guess that is better than going up.  I've decided to try to lower my calorie intake and up my exercise since my exercise has basically been non-exsistant.  I've only done my exercise DVD once.  I just can't seem to motivate myself to do it.  One step I have taken to try to get moving more is get a fitbit.  I haven't actually gotten it yet, but it should be coming in the mail sometime this week.  I wore my husbands 1 day when he forgot to take it to work.  I ended up walking 3 miles at work, which I was pretty impressed with.  I am looking forward to see if I do about 3 miles everyday, or if it was just a busy day that day.  So, for now, I will try to keep going even though I am not really wanting to stay on this diet.

The Weekends are Hard

Boy are the weekends tough.  If I blow it, it is always the weekend.  How can I be perfectly content to not snack and just eat my minimal lunch I bring to work during the week, when on the weekend all I want to do is eat?  I tell you why- I'm bored.  Well, not bored really, but I'm not as busy as when I am at school.  Plus, I don't have any food around at school.  If we do have food at school, I can usually resist.  I was proud of myself that I did skip the cake that was there last week.  So, how do I get myself to get through the weekend without gaining weight and going over my calories?  Who the hell knows!!!!  I sure wish I could answer that question.  I did have a pretty good week this week.  When I weighed for our FACT club at school, I was done a pound and a half - which was great because I had been the same weight 3 weeks in a row.  I'm currently in 2nd place in the weight loss contest (which shows how awful we have all been doing).  I really hope I can get past this weekend and have another good week.  I have to tell you though, I am getting tired of trying to be good and the guilt I feel when I'm not.  It is very exhausting!  I want to do well, but sometimes my emotions get the best of me and I eat.  I've been craving bad things that I would have eaten before.  Foods like - McDonalds and just sweets in general. 

Goal for this week:  Not to go nuts on Valentine's Day.  As a teacher, I always get candy from students - and eat it!  I have to say that it is a weakness for me.  So, my goal is to skip the candy this Valentine's Day!

Doing better

I'm feeling a little better about things.  I have gotten back into healthy eating that last few days and have lost a little weight.  I'm actually down from last week, even considering during the week I gained.  So, I've lost what I had gained during the week and a little more.  I need to stay on this path.  It is a good place to be.

What am I really struggling with now?  My period. As gross as that is, it is something that effects me every month.  My eating habits change, I crave bad things (like sweets and chocolate), I'm tired, and I bloat.  Not only do I get effects physically, I also suffer from terrible PMS.  So, here I am.  I'm tired, cranky, and craving chocolate!  GET OUT OF MY WAY!!!  hehehe  I hope I can control my eating this week and don't kill anyone!  (J/K)

Failing at this

I started out so well.  I was doing great, and then the stress level at work went up 10 fold which means stress eating for me.  What doesn't make any sense is I know this about me, however, I still end up saying, "Oh forget it. I'll eat ***."  It is not a good way to go. I'm up almost 2 pounds and really need to get myself under control.  Not only am I not losing weight, but I'm gaining back the few that I did lose.  So, I need a plan of attack for this week and I don't know where to start.  I guess I will try no more snacking between meals, other than maybe low fat yogurt or fruit.  Something healthy, anyway.  So, hopefully I can get back into this and stop hating myself for failing.